A THOUSAND CROSSINGS X

Dear Diary...
可能真的是长大了吧
samedi 11 avril 2009

A few weeks ago while talking to Wei Kit about his problems, he said he thinks I have increased in maturity in a short time, like just over the December holidays. My reply was, really? Maybe it's just that I've been through quite a bit.

Then today, while talking to Novell, we kinda deviated to the topic of NCC. It gave me the chance to reflect on my 3 year career. Especially the very eventful last year.

Failure to meet achievements. Broken dreams. Jealousy. Mistakes. Strained relationships. Sounds suicidal. I was a young, immature BOY.

Then there were those numerous apologies and sorries. That loss of hope.

Eventually decided to dedicate my final months, and energy into my Part As. (:

I remembered those words you said Snr Anthony. No matter what post we get, we just have to play our parts and roles to bring our Unit to greater heights. That was what I decided to do. I didn't want to just train a Part A batch, but a batch of elites.

Wonder if you Part As still remember. It was your first training and I told you it wasn't going to be easy, and asked if any of you wished to quit. None of you raised your hands. It was a gamble I took. If anyone of you raised your hands. I'd be in deep shit. Believe me, deep shit.

It was your first training, but I was already flooding your knowledge banks with new drills and information. Remember 'crystal-clear'? haha.

No other Part A batch have experienced such intense training for the first 3 months of their NCC careers. But you guys did, and survived it.

Hopefully I managed to prove my point. You do not have to treat Part As as small spoilt children. They joined us to be men. And it's our job to fulfil our promise. And I did. :)

You guys ran 10 rounds on your third training. Remember? No other Part A batch did it. But you guys did, and survived the run. :)

Probably the way I deal with things have really changed. The way I deal with relations, studies, CCA, emotions. .___. 可能真的是长大了吧.

I once told warren lao ba, now Sir Warren, that I want to leave a legacy behind.

So, have I? you decide.

Now I look at the post. I sound like a small kid trying to sound like a man.

but I didn't tell a lie in this post. :)

And most of all. I hope I find A Place In This World, where I belong.

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Taylor Swift
A Place In This World

I don't know what I want, so don't ask me
cause I'm still trying to figure it out
don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking
trying to see through the rain coming down
even though I'm not the only one
who feels the way I do.

I don't know what I want, or want to be. Still thinking. I'm just working towards my future, trying to see through the mist and make out my future from its silhouette.

I'm alone, On my own, and im startin off
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
Oh I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

I can only make this journey alone. So alone I go. (: I'm just a boy trying to find a place in this world, where he belongs.

Got the radio on, my old blue jeans
and I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve
feeling lucky today, got the sunshine.
could you tell me what more do I need
and tomorrow's just a mystery, oh yeah
but that's ok

Tomorrow's a mystery. But time will tell.

I'm alone, On my own, and im starting off
I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
Oh I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

maybe I'm just a girl on a mission
but I'm ready to fly..

Maybe I'm just a boy who has to fulfil a purpose in life before he leaves. But doesn't matter. I'm ready to do what I am supposed to.

I'm alone, On my own, and im startin off
Oh I'll be strong, I'll be wrong, oh but life goes on
OH I'm alone, On my own, and im startin off Oh I'm just a girl, trying to find a place in this world

Oh I'm just a girl,
Oh I’m just a girl,
Oh I’m just a girl

I'm just any other boy. Trying to find his place in this world

Au Revoir

yongliang

万分感动.

he closed his diary at {02:00}