A THOUSAND CROSSINGS X

Dear Diary...
Bad.
vendredi 17 octobre 2008

Physics was bad.
History was bad.
Geog was bad.
Bio was bad.

Everything today was bad. Dam bad. Before Physics Script Check was recess. I knew what happened was a bad omen. I just knew it. Bought Prawn Mee for recess. Went to sit beside Samuel, as i sat down my bowl of Prawn noodles spilled out of the bow, onto the table, onto my right thigh, my right calf. Maybe what Rong Xian said last time about my fast reflexes was right, I managed to save my Converse shoes and my Hush Puppies Socks. Phew.

But the Prawn Mee still scalded my right thigh. Still got that little hot feeling there now. My green shorts smells of prawn mee. Oily. Damn. I was so sure it was a bad omen. Nice classmates of mine said that it might be a bad omen, but takign into consideration that I managed to save my shoe and socks, it might be possible that something last minute might save my score. That was the hope I was bamking on. My pillar of support.

Section B and C were both complete failures. 13/40. 11/30. Total failure. Den i was crossing my fingers, hoping i could get 26/30 for MCQ. I was leaning on that pillar of support, that me saving my shoes and socks, might mean that I will be able to save my score thanks to my MCQ. Well, i was wrong. 5 marks short.

This time Physics was no borderline failure. But I am 100% sure that I put in double the effort of that of last term, and that of Mid Years. I told myself before Physics, since i put in double the effort this time compared to MYEs, I shud reap better results. i started off well, didn't forget a single formula. Wrote them all down on the cover page. Before flipping the question booklet open and started shading circles, pressing buttons on my calculator, (button 5). But i knew when i arrived at Section B that History might repeat itself. It did, but this time, i couldn't salvage it. MYEs i got 49, but i managed to find a marking error and earned myself 2 marks, escaping the clutches of failure. But i failed to this time. :(

Physics. Damn.

Bio, totally hopeless. I forgot everything when I looked at the paper. Mental block.

Geog, totally unexpected.

History, totally unexpected x2.

How I hate the reality of life. You might not reap what u sow, but hopefully u get the seed back. :(

Training was. bad. saddening. But I got better as time passed. I wonder how my Part As would be like. Nevertheless, they will be the best, cos they've got the best UDI they can ever get. Who says Part As can be better than Part Bs or even Cs, its just an age difference. That's what I think. I can't wait. The excitement. It would be fun. But its going to be short too. The sorrow of a Part A/D UDI.

Its true Staff BH, couldn't prove you wrong. It is really, impossible to take ur own peers for training. True. I can't beg to differ anymore. Somehow, I think its cos we are called Part A UDIs, and not Part D UDIs like NCC land. It amazes me how Don can take them for training. Really. He's real nice to them, that's 1. And I did that during the first training after SSC, but that training failed terribly. It's just namesake. Why does it matter so much? Some people can't read can they? Never mind.

I want my Part As to make me proud. They'd be the best NCC have seen. Part As with a legacy to boot. That's historic. Then their teacher would be a hero.

Ohhh.. I can't wait. The excitement. (Though some part within me says I want to get out as soon as possible so I can start mugging the way I really want to.)

Argh, my secondary school life is hopeless, the colours I imagined became monochrome reality.

A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable but more useful than a life spent in doing nothing. - George Bernard Shaw

As if, Mr Shaw. If one is to be hated more and more for every mistake he makes, what honour is there to talk about?

Dreams that don't exist.
yongliang.

The 'O's are coming...

he closed his diary at {21:02}