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Dear Diary...
Nervous
jeudi 18 juin 2009

This is going on my wishlist

Sigh. I don't know what to do :/

Prelims are coming next Monday. I just have a bad feeling about it and the big Os. Really afraid it might be the repeat of my PSLE :/

Sigh. I feel that I have slackened this term. And then again, I might not have entirely slackened, I don't really know. Because somehow I managed to have some free time once in a while this term, unlike term 1 when I was literally studying from 7am-6am.

And I think I didn't utilise the free time well. A part of me tells me to cherish the break and have fun during that time and make the most out of it because I probably won't have a time for a breather later on in the year, however another part of me tells me that I'll regret for life if I slacken now and screw up at the Os.

And I always choose to slacken off. Ok, maybe not always. Sometimes I'm afraid I'll regret in future and thus I put in another couple of hours of studying. :/

But I still think I slackened. And I'm afraid to bear the consequences :/ sigh.
But then, somehow I always remind myself of how hard I have worked and I need a break, and I end up playing. :/

I wonder who's the angel and who's the devil now. :(

I think I slacked a lot during this 1 week self-study period. Then again, I think I've done quite a lot of revision also. I've already done revision for all my subjects, very well-paced I guess. Cos tomorrow I'll be working on my last subject, Biology. That will mean I have covered all my subjects by tomorrow, (excluding the 2 languages). I don't know if I've been slacking or working hard. Or doing work, but not doing it hard enough. :/ sigh. GIVE ME A SIGN! DAMMIT.

Yesyesyes. Os is not everything (I think that's Silvana's fave phrase), but it's still something significant. Sigh. I can't imagine what I'm going to do with myself if I get 10 F9s. Even 10 A2s can't really get me anywhere. It frightens me when things do not go as planned. I'd feel very insecure and all. :/ If I go somewhere worse then NJC, it will mean I have to begin planning again, and the reprioritising my dreams and aspirations. It's frightening.

I'm in a dilemma with myself.

I think I've got a split personality. :/

Sigh, the hardworking me come back in term 3 and stay until the end of Os okay? I need the Term 1 me to come back.

Au Revoir

yongliang

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I don't want to be worst in class again. :(

he closed his diary at {22:15}

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