A THOUSAND CROSSINGS X

Dear Diary...
'Lecture'
mardi 3 juin 2008

Just a few minutes ago, my mum 'lectured' me.

She made me list down the hours i spent on the computer. And made a hasty generalisation (fallacy) my saying that all this time that i am spending on the computer could have be used to do something else useful. She also concluded that i have only did 4-5 hours of pure work. I honestly wouldn't deny the facts. I, can certainly do other things more useful, but does she know how i feel? I tried voicing out, but i get fired back with remarks such as i was talking back to her, or my mum saying that i am addicted and i am in denial. I eat fine, i sleep fine and i drink fine. I go through my camps as normal and are these symptoms of addiction?

The people who said process is more important that results are all liars. NOBODY looks at the process. even my mother. Does she see what i am doing in school? While some classmates are squandering the 5 minute breaks in between periods, i study, and look through the previous lessons' notes. My classmates like Timothy and Wei Lun see me studying, they call me to relax and dun push myself so hard. But i always tell myself, in school, i will study, i will play only at home. But does my mum see all these? NO. To her, i am a kid that just comes home to play computer. Does she see the effort i put in in school? Does she see the work i do. Does she see me help others? NO, all NO. And why is she fit to make such hasty and unfounded accusations against me? Yes, i have done badly for my MYEs, far from expectations, but have i put in the effort? i certainly have. I listen in class, i do my work. Get accused by teachers sometimes. I serve the prefectorial board, i serve my CCA. But what does all my effort provide me with? Nothing except scolding, scolding and more scolding.

I need someone to hear my voice. I have no direction anymore. I dunno what to do. No matter how hard i try, i still get the same results, the same accusations, the same scoldings. What is there to work for. No one wants to see the process. They only want to see the results. That is why cheaters and liars scot-free and do well, and that is also why i am here crying in front of my computer screen.

No one hears my voice. No one understands me... There isn't a place to house a soul like me.

he closed his diary at {22:41}

Probably 1 of the thousands of babies born in 1993,
Got his first whack on the ass on the morning of 030993. It was a Friday.
Preparing to face the world now in Catholic High School.

This guy is/was a:

:;Part D UDI:: 2008 (technically, but not in name)
::Part A UDI:: 2009
in the CHS NCC (Air) Unit
::Programmes Coordinator:: of the CHS Prefectorial Board.
::Marksman::! x3
::Orienteer::!
::Outdoor Adventure Leader::
::2 Star Kayaker::
::Bronze Swimmer:: (i'd drown)
::ex-Pilot::
::Pencil artist::
::Vector artist::
::Amateur Photographer::
::Amateur Pool Player::
::Narcissist::
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Last but not least, he THINKS he is a pretty nice guy :) (He actually is.)

He has so many likes, dislikes, and wishes that they have to be put into lists below. read more...

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.::13 Grandmothers::.
.::FOURoNers::.

A

.::Amanda::.
.::Anders::.
.::Avan::.

B

.::Balthus Ben::.
.::Benjamin Goh::.
.::Bryan Koh::.
.::Bryan Seah::.

C

.::Chang Jing::.
.::Christabel::.
.::Clarence::.
.::Clarissa::.

D

.::Darren Mok::.
.::Dong Lum::.
.::Donson Toh::.
.::Duo Geng::.

E

.::Edwin Liang::.
.::Eleanor Chia::.
.::Elgyn Lau::.
.::Ernest Tan::.
.::Eugenia::.
.::Eunice::.

G

.::GeRaLd LiNg::.
.::Gary Lai::.

H

.::Han Wen::.
.::HuI PiNg::.
.::Hui Yang::.

I

.::Irwin Lim::.
.::Ivan Yak::.

J

.::Janier::.
.::Jie Min::.
.::Jonathan Chew::.
.::Johnervan::.
.::Joshua Tan::.
.::Joen::. [dotter]
.::Joel Yow::.
.::Jun Hoe::.

K

.::KANAAAAAAAAAA::.
.::Kenneth Lim::.
.::Ken Seah::.
.::Keziah::.[sis]

L

.::LaU SwEe YaN::.
.::LeWiS TaN::.
.::Li YuAn::.
.::Ling Kang::.
.::LingLing::.
.::LingLing & Silvana::.

M

.::Martin::.
.::Monkey Clement::.

N

.::Nicholas Wee::.
.::Novell::.

O

.::OnG ToOn YaNg::.

P

.::Phyllis::.
.::Prince Pickles::.

R

.::Roslina Yong::.
.::Roy Goh::.

S

.::Silvana & LingLing::.

T

.::TaN Ek KiAt::.
.::Tawan Teo::.
.::Teck Lee::.
.::Teh Wei Jie::.

W

.::Wei En::.
.::Wei Jie::.
.::Wei Lun::.
.::Wei Kit::.[twin]
.::Wei Xuan::.[the robot beside me]
.::WeN XuAn::.

X

.::Xuan Yu::.

Y

.::Yan Rong::.
.::Yuk Tim::.
.::Yann Yih::.
.::Yong Hwee::.
.::Yu Cheng::.

Z

.::Ze Jun::.
.::Zong Xian::.
.::Zheng Xiang::.